By 1890, at age 20, Fish moved to
New York City. There he engaged in
male prostitution and began
molesting and
raping boys, mostly less than six years old. In 1898, Fish's mother
arranged a marriage for him with Anna Mary Hoffman, who was nine years his junior. They had six children: Albert, Anna, Gertrude, Eugene, John and Henry Fish. Several years later, around 1910, Fish was working in
Wilmington, Delaware, when he met a 19-year-old man named Thomas Bedden. He took Bedden to where he was staying and the two began a
sadomasochistic relationship; it is unclear whether the sadomasochism was consensual on Bedden's part, but Fish's later confession implied that Bedden was
intellectually disabled. After ten days, Fish took Bedden to "an old farm house", where he
tortured him over two weeks. Fish eventually tied Bedden up and cut off half of his penis. "I shall never forget his scream or the look he gave me", Fish later recalled. He originally intended to kill Bedden, cut up his body, and take it home, but he feared the hot weather would draw attention; instead, Fish poured
peroxide over the wound, wrapped it in a
Vaseline-covered handkerchief, left a $10 bill, kissed Bedden goodbye and left. "Took first train I could get back home. Never heard what become of him, or tried to find out," Fish recalled. In January 1917, Fish's wife left him for John Straube, a handyman who boarded with the Fish family. Fish was subsequently forced to raise his children as a
single parent. After his arrest, Fish told a newspaper that when his wife left him, she took nearly every possession the family owned. Fish began to have auditory hallucinations; he once wrapped himself in a carpet, saying that he was following the instructions of
John the Apostle. He often chose people who were either mentally disabled or
African-American as his victims, later explaining that he assumed these people would not be missed when killed. Fish would later claim to have occasionally paid boys to procure other children for him. Fish tortured, mutilated, and murdered young children with his "implements of Hell": a
meat cleaver, a
butcher knife, and a small
handsaw. Despite
already being married, Fish married Estella Wilcox on February 6, 1930, in
Waterloo, New York; they divorced after only one week. Fish was arrested in May 1930 for "sending an obscene letter to a woman who answered an advertisement for a maid." ==Murder of Grace Budd==