Like many other Russian intellectuals of his generation, Pecherin was very enthusiastic and hopeful about the
political reforms instituted in the Russian Empire following the coronation of
Tsar Alexander II, and most particularly by
the 1861 abolition of
serfdom in Russia. In 1862, after 20 years of service as a missionary, Pecherin was permitted leave the Redemptorists at his own request. To save him from destitution, Pecherin was assigned by the
Archbishop of Dublin, Cardinal
Paul Cullen, who respected Pecherin despite their differing views about the
Syllabus of Errors, as chaplain to the
Sisters of Mercy at the
Mater Misericordiae Hospital. There, while living in obscurity as a virtual hermit, Pecherin spent the last 23 years of his life. In 1863, the
extreme Slavophile Moscow Gazette argued that Pecherin's return to Russia might be welcome, but only if he would agree to facilitate better relations between the Government and the Catholic clergy, who were alleged to have singlehandedly instigated the recent
nationalist January Uprising against Tsarist rule in
Congress Poland. In reality, Pecherin's conversion to Catholicism had not altered his support for
self-determination of the
Polish people and "found the idea of being a loyal subject of the Russian Tsar preposterous. However, he also wanted to affirm his loyalty to the values that were dear to his generation and to present his own version of his life story." The incident accordingly inspired him to write his memoirs,
Apologia pro vita mea (Notes from Beyond the Tomb). In response, Pecherin reached out to his former
St Petersburg University friend
Feodor Chizhov and began making arrangements to write and publish his memoirs. As his explanation why, Pecherin wrote, "I happen to lead two lives: one here, the other in Russia. I cannot get rid of Russia. I belong to her with the very essence of my being. It is thirty years since I have settled here - yet, I'm still a stranger. My spirit and my dreams wander not hither - at least, not in the setting to which I was chained by fatal necessity. I don't care if anyone remembers me here when I die, but Russia is another matter. Oh, how much, how much I wish to leave some memory of myself on Russian soil! At least one printed page, witnessing the existence of a certain Vladimir Sergeev Pecherin. That page would be my gravestone saying: 'Here lie the heart and mind of V. Pecherin.'" Despite his self-deprecating humour alleging a lack of ability in the
Russian language, Pecherin skillfully emulated the prose style of other writers. As he described the era of his childhood, he expressed himself in the historical prose of
Alexander Pushkin. As he described his early adulthood, he did so in the writing styles of
Ivan Turgenev and
Nikolai Karamzin. Later events were described in an idiom similar to Fyodor Dostoevsky and even
Anton Chekhov, who was still a schoolboy. During his time in
Dublin, Pecherin had remained harshly critical of
Tsarism, but had also grown to oppose certain policies of
Pope Pius IX. During an era of increasingly bitter struggle between
Liberal Catholicism,
Secularism, and
Caesaropapism on the one hand with
Traditionalist Catholicism and
Ultramontanism on the other, the Pope's
crusade against certain elements of
Classical Liberalism and the natural sciences struck Pecherin as excessive and left him feeling deeply disillusioned. These are the reasons for the bitterness sometimes expressed in his memoirs; in which either Pecherin or his editor Chizhov, "described his years in the Redemptorist Order as spiritual slumber and his entire Catholic experience as a fatal error of judgment." There were other reasons for this, however, according to Pecherin scholar Natalia Pervukhina-Kamyshnikova, "Aware of the incomprehensibility of his conversion and his readers' insatiable curiosity about his motivation, he tried to minimize the significance of his Catholic experience in their eyes. That accounts for the playful, almost frivolous tone in his description of the most important step he took in life. He puts the blame for his decision on the aesthetic enchantment he found in
Lamennais and
George Sand. He explains his conversion as inspired by visions of a poetic wilderness and by literary images that drew him inexorably to monastic life." After carefully editing excerpts from Pecherin's many letters to him between 1865 and 1877 into a book length memoir, Chizhov fought to get the volume published. Despite Chizhov's best efforts to edit the draft into an acceptable form to the government during an era of the limited relaxation of
censorship in the Russian Empire under Tsar Alexander, "political considerations" still prevented the publication of Pecherin's memoirs. Chizhov died in 1877, without having seen them appear in print. ==Death and legacy==